Homesick

Mike had the opportunity to go to Germany for two weeks for work. He was so excited and gitty about leaving that I was anxious for him to leave as well. He seriously has been talking about this trip for about a year now. I told him that the next time he goes and we dont have a baby I am going with!! Notice I didnt ask I just told. Sometimes it just works better like that :) Moving on.....

He has now been gone for about a week and a half and boy does it feels like alot longer. Dont get me wrong there have been some ups to having him gone. I have had my own agenda and have gotten alot done but probably the best part has been our dinner menu: fruit, bread, popcorn, yogurt, cottage cheese, pancakes, and cereal. FABULOUS.

Having him not be here makes me realize just how much I lean on him for well almost everything. Even though he is at work most of the day I still know that I could call him and ask a question or just bug him in general. Even when he has been out of town but still in the states I knew he was just a phone call away and if need be he could get home even if he had to walk. But man, this out if the country stuff is a little more nerve wracking. Our times are so off that there have been days when I haven't been able to talk to him. There have been brief emails between us but really an email? Not the same as hearing a voice and seeing a smile.

Friends have asked how it has been my response it feels like being homesick. Yes, I know I am the one at home and he is actually gone. Yes, I am here with the girls and doing the the day to day things I do everyday even when he is here. I just dont quite feel like myself and I am a little bit more ansy then usual. The girls have been great and aside from Hollands dang tooth that finally made its appearance we have had some fun.

I am so ready for him to come home and walk through the door,give me a kiss, and ask as nicely as possible about my day. Even though I am sure he has a pretty good sense just by the appearance of the house. I am ready to make a decent meal, to go to bed before midnight, pick up his dirty socks that he leaves in the EXACT spot each night before bed, snuggle in after the lights go out, and give that toothless grin one more kiss before shutting my eyes. Just a few more days........